Detached

I feel so detached I feel like disappearing from the face of Earth.

It takes so much effort to play catch up and show that I care. It seems so much easier to disappear

Vlog #6

Vlog #5

While on the KTX

Vlog #4

About our hauls! Enjoy (:

Vlog #3

Yet another vlog, about our first day in Busan!

Vlog #2

While I was on the plane. I think the volume is too low, but I was on the plane and everyone was sleeping. So...

Over it

Off to ride my motorbike and let the wind ruffle my hair

My first videolog!

Please pardon me for the grammatical errors I made

Insomnia

I can't get to sleep recently. Cus well, I keep thinking about my results.

I seriously can't be left alone, I think I'll go crazy. I need someone, anyone there so that I'll portray my normal "Jingwen" look and behaviour.

But behind that facade? I feel like I'm the worst person to be alive.

How could I do that bad? Now I've a phobia when I see NUS. Really.

My perspective of how I did changes every second x_x

One moment it can be "I will do better next sem, it's okay. Just think of my Bs as spread over my entire school life in NUS"

Another moment it is "How could I let myself do so badly?? I'm so screwed. What am I going to do?"

Another moment "I will try my best to do better next time, even if all my modules are getting harder"

OH FUCK.

I'm so sick of all these. I don't want to do badly. I don't want to think too. I wish I could stop thinking but I can't x_x

Thats why I'm scared of being alone, showering and sleeping

How can I get over this? Haiiiiiiiiiiiii

Fuck my pathetic life