Giving up

Suddenly felt like giving up everything here. You dunno how much I hate my life :(
I dun want to work in the future. A mundane life, is that what I was born for?

I want to play ZR for the rest of my life.

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Just thought I would drop in here for awhile to revive my dead blog.

Since the school started, I've set a few goals for myself, which is to:

1. Complete all tutorials before the weeks start
2. Try to pre and post read any lecture notes while travelling
3. Practise ZR every day for at least half an hour.

Hope I'll really keep up all these goals. I think University has made me an unhappy person. Been feeling very unhappy recently, but I'm still breathing. My mood is like a sin/cos curve that goes up and down periodically, and the worst thing is I can't control how I feel x_x

CCA and work has been making me x_x urggggh

I need to learn how to be contented with my life and to stop comparing myself to other people, and think "I should have done better" It's hard and I had this mentality since sec1? Haiii

I've been having a lot of dreams (I've dreamt every single night since last week) recently, and it made my life seem eventful. But in actual fact, I'm just a boring student that goes to a boring university and have a boring cca. Even my subjects are boring, like Managerial Accounting.

Ohwell, I guess you are finding my musings boring already. Bye

Cheapo

My sister's crystal dizi which is cheaper than the normal dizis in Singapore. Looks really pretty! Not sure about the sound though

I've got a new cheapo wallet, thanks to sister who helped me order.
Nice? It's a Cath Kidston copy x_x

All from China. Hahaha

Somedays

Somedays I feel so sorry for myself that I want to cry.

I feel like a failure.

& I just don't want to talk to anyone.

When will I get over it? It's been a year...

I don't want to be average, I want to be awesome

FATWENZ

Meet FATWENZ, me :(
Sadly, I find my black blouse tight after two years.

Haiiii, it's an alarm, a reminder for me to cut down on eating or start exercising.

Super sad, why can't I remain what I'm no matter how much I eat?? & there's magnum in the fridge!! x_x

Back!

I was away due to Oweek.
& what a week!

I wanted to join Oweek last sem cus I always have this false impression of camps. I think camps are fun and camps will leave me feeling very high.

Apparently, it's not true!

Jialin and I joined the Oweek as subcomm, our duties include saikang stuff and being station masters. It wasn't fun at all. & I got sunburnt really really really bad. My shoulders were so badly sunburnt that wearing my bra hurt me for the 3,4 days after. It's now peeling and it looks super super disgusting x_x  If I ever join any camps from now on, it would be only as OGL. lol

Can't believe school started today! Had two lectures today. Finance and genes&society. Finance was really boring cus it was 9am in the morning and the lecturer just kept talking in a normal voice. Plus the topic wasn't really interesting. After that I slacked around with my biz friends and I met L for lunch at the deck. Then we headed to the new Starbucks in Utown! It's awesome cus we enjoy a 10% discount and we get to use our Starbucks card! The only bad thing was that the place was super stuffy x_x

I used the time to do some CO stuff, like refining the welcome tea video and sourcing for sponsors for our concert! Meanwhile we had time to photobooth

Notice the bag with the camera motif in the background. I love it! It's the 2nd I got after I bought another book today. I gave one to L cus he likes it too. Isn't it niceeee! It's awesome for textbooks cus it's quite slim and you dun have to worry about accidentally folding the textbook pages cus the textbooks will be packed tightly together!

Alright, gonna go back to my biz anal II lecture notesss