I've a presentation tmrw x.x
I'm so scaredddddd.
lol
cant wait for it to be over so I can read mkting, do FA tutorial and play my ZR! (:
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Sick of myself
Feeling fugly and inferior to everyone else. Why didn't I try harder?
Nobody needs anybody. I'm and I'll be fine by my own
Nobody needs anybody. I'm and I'll be fine by my own
Fresh day
Just got home from Siewfong's birthday celebration.
Was quite fun, I love doing funny stuffs.
It lightens my heart. Ohwell now I'm back to reality.
They were talking about 丰年祭 and I was reminded of my jc CO days.
I really miss the SMELL of the CO room...
I dun really like NUSCO now, there are like a jumble of people I don't know. They care about professionalism more than anything. And it kills. I wished I knew more people, played better and stuff.
I want to play fun songs like 飞天, not 赤壁 which has like 21 pages, 5-6 chapters and super difficult. Haiz
Everytime I go to CO and I see this person who bears a high resemblance to *, I feel so weird. Their faces look so alike! It's like I'm staring into * x.x But this person has a different aura, like a pro-er, more accomplished person, a different kind of person. I hope I'll get to know this person as time passes.
And my day passes away. I wished I have a day when I can wake up late and hang out around at home then go walk around singapore. I haven had the time to walk the streets since school started. But I have no chance. I need to feel the chinese new year mood! x.x Get super high shoesssss hahahah
Was quite fun, I love doing funny stuffs.
It lightens my heart. Ohwell now I'm back to reality.
They were talking about 丰年祭 and I was reminded of my jc CO days.
I really miss the SMELL of the CO room...
I dun really like NUSCO now, there are like a jumble of people I don't know. They care about professionalism more than anything. And it kills. I wished I knew more people, played better and stuff.
I want to play fun songs like 飞天, not 赤壁 which has like 21 pages, 5-6 chapters and super difficult. Haiz
Everytime I go to CO and I see this person who bears a high resemblance to *, I feel so weird. Their faces look so alike! It's like I'm staring into * x.x But this person has a different aura, like a pro-er, more accomplished person, a different kind of person. I hope I'll get to know this person as time passes.
And my day passes away. I wished I have a day when I can wake up late and hang out around at home then go walk around singapore. I haven had the time to walk the streets since school started. But I have no chance. I need to feel the chinese new year mood! x.x Get super high shoesssss hahahah
Friday, January 28, 2011
After so long
I'm back here blogging again.
I miss writing...
I've been so fucking busy recently! Every morning I wake up, I wash up and go to school. Then attend lessons and back home again. I procrastinate for awhile then start on my school work, and finally sleep! This whole cycle's been my life for 1/2 weeks. I cant believe I'm living this cycle when it's only week 3! Hello, week 6/7/8/9/10 are the killer weeks when all the projects are due and stuff.
Recently I've been pretty insecure about myself. I don't like business sometimes. Accounting is not my cup of tea. I can manage it but I dun think I'll ever enjoy it. It's just different. I dun like marketing as well x.x I think bizcomm is crap :/
So how? Changing my course? But how will I ever accept it? I know myself too well to change. Regrets are all over the place.
Depressed I am. Gone are all the possibilities I dreamt of myself doing when I was young. Being an author or being a doctor or being a reporter or being a scientist. All these careers are no longer open to me. I'm in business where you earn money by making other people lose money or you make people give you money by letting them think they're buying a good product. Dirty business but that's where I'm in. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to go to Korean class alone :/ All my fears and I'm all by myself. Never lonelier than I am now. But my road carries on...
I'm no longer brilliant, like how brilliant I was in secondary school in science. How growing up has dimmed my mind! I want to write stories.
& I don't like to get close with people who aren't like me.
I miss writing...
I've been so fucking busy recently! Every morning I wake up, I wash up and go to school. Then attend lessons and back home again. I procrastinate for awhile then start on my school work, and finally sleep! This whole cycle's been my life for 1/2 weeks. I cant believe I'm living this cycle when it's only week 3! Hello, week 6/7/8/9/10 are the killer weeks when all the projects are due and stuff.
Recently I've been pretty insecure about myself. I don't like business sometimes. Accounting is not my cup of tea. I can manage it but I dun think I'll ever enjoy it. It's just different. I dun like marketing as well x.x I think bizcomm is crap :/
So how? Changing my course? But how will I ever accept it? I know myself too well to change. Regrets are all over the place.
Depressed I am. Gone are all the possibilities I dreamt of myself doing when I was young. Being an author or being a doctor or being a reporter or being a scientist. All these careers are no longer open to me. I'm in business where you earn money by making other people lose money or you make people give you money by letting them think they're buying a good product. Dirty business but that's where I'm in. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to go to Korean class alone :/ All my fears and I'm all by myself. Never lonelier than I am now. But my road carries on...
I'm no longer brilliant, like how brilliant I was in secondary school in science. How growing up has dimmed my mind! I want to write stories.
& I don't like to get close with people who aren't like me.
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