After so long

I'm back here blogging again.
I miss writing...

I've been so fucking busy recently! Every morning I wake up, I wash up and go to school. Then attend lessons and back home again. I procrastinate for awhile then start on my school work, and finally sleep! This whole cycle's been my life for 1/2 weeks. I cant believe I'm living this cycle when it's only week 3! Hello, week 6/7/8/9/10 are the killer weeks when all the projects are due and stuff.

Recently I've been pretty insecure about myself. I don't like business sometimes. Accounting is not my cup of tea. I can manage it but I dun think I'll ever enjoy it. It's just different. I dun like marketing as well x.x I think bizcomm is crap :/
So how? Changing my course? But how will I ever accept it? I know myself too well to change. Regrets are all over the place.

Depressed I am. Gone are all the possibilities I dreamt of myself doing when I was young. Being an author or being a doctor or being a reporter or being a scientist. All these careers are no longer open to me. I'm in business where you earn money by making other people lose money or you make people give you money by letting them think they're buying a good product. Dirty business but that's where I'm in. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to go to Korean class alone :/ All my fears and I'm all by myself. Never lonelier than I am now. But my road carries on...

I'm no longer brilliant, like how brilliant I was in secondary school in science. How growing up has dimmed my mind! I want to write stories.

& I don't like to get close with people who aren't like me.