2011 < 2012

Well, about 2011.

It was pretty okay...

Started off the year with things I can't remember but I think it was also staying at home during the countdown. I hate crowds and I don't want to squeeze with them during the new year and get my things stolen or something. Realized I always don't have anything on on supposedly eventful days like NYE and X'mas.

School started and I can't remember anything much except that I had biz comm and it was awful :(

The next big event that occurred was CO concert I think. Practices went really intensive in the week leading up to the concert and I remembered cabbing home with HuiJing like twice that week, paying $10 per person. Cus of the intensive practices, I didn't have time to spend my pocket money lol. Ended up being quite rich but I spent it all cabbing :(

Concert was pretty memorable cus it was at the Esplanade! My first time there! Had to put make up ourselves and stuff but thank goodness there were alumni to help us with it :)

L also entered my life and I'm glad hehehe

Ran for NUSCO exco and I got the Social Secretary position cus there was no one competing for it. I was pretty nervous cus it involved giving a speech in front of the members and alumni who were present and I also had to answer any questions from them. Looks like I was let off easily hahaha.

Then came the long holsss which I did nothing and went to Korea for 2 weeks. The Korea trip was awesome cus it was damn slack at the end. At the start, we were disciplined and we woke up quite early and did at least 2 itinerary items a day. But at the end we woke up at like ten or eleven and one did 1 item a day and I liked it cus I had enough rest :) I miss the tofu soup and fried chicken there!!!

Spent the remaining holidays going out and L and friends and had some exco meetings. Organized CO chalet and it was a failure :( Matriculation fair was okay. Thanks to everyone who has helped me in the chalet and matriculation fair!!

Got my results and it was disappointing. A really low phase of my life and I was pretty depressed for awhile. Started the next sem pretty unconfident of my abilities :(

Yeah I was unhappy and stuff but I guess I'm thankful of that. Because that phase really taught me a lot of things. To be stronger emotionally. To have faith in myself even when things are against me. To pick myself up. Stuff like that. Since that phase, I guess nothing much can make me that upset anymore. I realized that life is not that smooth sailing and I'm ready to ride all the waves.

Started the next sem by being quite hardworking (I don't know if I reached my limit) It is the only sem so far in which I completed almost all my tutorials on time and read almost all textbook chapters before lectures. Aiming to maintain that in the coming sem :)

Next sem was okay with quite little projects. Had mooncake festival celebrations for CO. Exams came and music camp was next. This was the year when I became closer to the exco like Huimin and Tj (SSSS :D), knew more friends from CO and knew more gossips. Previously I lived in a small world where there was only HuiJing and me, we knew nothing about gossips and no one included us in their clique except for our own section. It was fun nonetheless. Sometimes I missed those times when things become complicated and political now.

And before I knew it, 2011 is over. 2011 was a year where I learnt alot from myself and others. I also made new friends, became closer to some and further from some.

For 2012 I only have 2 resolutions, which is to have more faith in myself and to be more hardworking, in whatever I do, like CO and school work!

So angryzx suddenly

Suddenly feel very angry so I decided to download this app and vent!!!

Oh, it's about two guys and one girl. Let's name the two guys G1 and G2 and the girl, B.

Anyway it just so happened that G1 likes girl B and started making moves on her. The things he did are unbelievable cus he doesn't normally does it. And he talks to B openly so it's super obvious.

Yeah so I don't know why G2 must be so kaypoh to sound the B out and tell me about it. Scrutinize his actions and it makes me feel like what G1 does is wrong. Comments on his way of talking. Is chasing a girl wrong? Unless you like B or why would you be so interested? G2, how would you feel if some guy sound out your every move on a girl and gossips it with someone else! Imagine someone asking the girl you're interested in how you make your moves on a girl. I feel so angry for G1 suddenly because I know I don't want to be treated the same way. Don't want people to gossip about my moves, what's wrong with making moves on a girl when I'm a guy? Right. So angryzx!

I know I like to gossip also :(( Haizx

Can't live without you

Christmas is coming soon and I haven't really felt Christmasy. I really missed those times when I was small and my parents would pretend to be Santa Claus by slipping presents at the bottom of our bed at night. There was always a present at the bottom of my bed on every Christmas.

Now it's just gift exchanges between friends.

I feel like I can't get too close to anyone cus when any of my friends get too close to me, I would tend to shrink away. Tried controlling but I just can't. It's like a reflex.

This not only happens to friendships.

Sometimes I think I don't deserve happiness at all.

I feel like I'm not happy until I destroy my own happiness. I  know I shouldn't or I might regret but I can't help but to feel that way.

How warped a person I am.

Hair

Hair.

Did my hair today. Cut my fringe to bangs and trimmed/shortened my ends. My hair looks more tidy now. Going to make a point of combing my hair before heading out lol.

Oh let me recount to you the trials and tribulations I encountered to get this hair. FML
I went to this salon in FEP to cut my hair. It was recommended by my mum and said to be cheap and nice. I also wanted to dip dye my hair with bright colours like blue or purple. Went into the salon then I realized they don't have such colours, they only have brown, orange and stuff. So I settled for just a haircut.

After the haircut, I went to another salon and told them I want to dye the ends of my hair purple. My mum and I chose a darker purple for fear that my hair would be too bright. The hairdresser then bleached my hair twice, which took at least 45mins. Still my hair didn't reach the platinum blonde standard, it became gold. The hairdresser then decided that it was enough and proceeded to apply the purple dye. First round no effect and it looks like I never dyed my hair so she applied the purple dye another time. After blow-drying my hair, they realized that there was no colour at all!! Cus the purple dye they used was too dark.

I went back to my mum and she complained to the hairdresser. The hairdresser re-did my hair. She lightened my hair first, and it reverted back to the bleached gold colour and she dyed my hair magneta, which is like red. She says it's kind of impossible for me to dye purple cus the colour would never come out.

Total time taken : 5 hours

Haizx, wished I chose a brighter colour or they bleached my hair lighter. But what's done been done so I have to stick to boring red and it isn't even striking :((( Spent so much $$$ some more. Last time I'll dye my hair!!

Before I knew it, I typed so much already! Since I spent so much time at the salon today, I'm going to stay up late to finish some of the sponsorship stuffs

Adieu
:((

Camp & Books

Books I've read since the holidays. Currently reading the third book, Mockingjay of the Hunger Games trilogy. It's touted as the next Harry Potter. I think the plot loses to Harry Potter but it's quite un-put-downable. Cus the plot is like forever exciting, Katniss the protagonist is always in danger. Hunger games is kinda like a reflection of the current state of all societies. How the rich are more ambitious and more powerful and hence get more ahead while those who are poor starves and loses :(

Fortune's Formula was interesting cus it's about stocks and gambling. The book mentioned some of the finance concepts that I learnt during the sem and I think it's quite useful!

The Bernie Madoff book was ultra boring cus it was just about how Madoff got his funds to operate his Ponzi scheme but I can say that I know how the finance world works better after reading the book. I skipped certain sections cus there were just too many feeder funds and the writer went off to like illustrate all?

Just came back from camp two days ago and I came back dead tired. The camp was fun and I miss the company I had in camp. Huimin and Tangjie are so funny and we spent time either talking crap or late night HTHT. I missed playing the ZR though even though I'm quite cuiii. I can't wait for my term to be over after the camp cus I discovered some stuffs which makes me upset. But it's okay cus I know nothing can change it and all I want to do now is to do my best and complete my term, as both SS and concert comm.

Felt strong motivation to practise ZR after camp. Hopefully I will cus the songs are really difficult! So fast!! :((

First attempt at photoshop

Can you tell the difference?

I was feeling upset yesterday cus I finished the HK drama, Lives of Omission and the good people in the show did not end up good :(( To cheer myself up, I went to watch old episodes of Xiaxue's guide to life. Damn random but it did make me feel better cus most of the episodes were quite funny. I also saw how Xiaxue photoshopped her pictures and I decided to try it.

Does it look normal? I have flawless skin in the picture on the right! Removed all my freckles + pimples. I  made L's chin look shorter as well. LOL

Over exams

After L finished his exams, we met up to watch 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 and it was very nice. Humourous and sad :( I really liked this phrase 

人生很多事本來就是徒勞無功的呀(但是還是要去做...)

Really hit me hard and it's true... :(

Went to Aston's for dinner. They opened a new outlet at iluma. We wanted to walk to this place that serves indothai food, but it was drizzling so we decided to go somewhere more convenient.

My awesome looking grilled fish with herb!! I like their potato salad and I feel that it's their best side dish. It's like a habit already, I'll just order whatever mains with pasta and potato salad. Even though I like their fish, I think that they tend to over grill it sometimes. It will taste bitter, which is the case for today. Thankfully it's only chaota for some parts.

Before Aston's we went to Starbucks to chill for awhileeee

My detachable ring. Bought this ring from korea and it's the second time the flower is detaching from the ring :( After we left Starbucks, I flicked my hand while talking to L and it flew out. Thank goodness we were able to find flower part on the floor

Me with centre parting, been wanting to change my parting for awhile but I don't know if it looks nice. L says I look better with side parting though :(
Pimples galore

Toffee Nut Frappe and Peanut butter stack! The best cake in Starbucks I shall say! (esp if you have a sweet tooth) going to miss toffee nut after xmas :(

Life isn't very relaxing after exams. I have letters to write, thank goodness I have some templates from last year and all I need to do is to edit. Plus I want to find an internship next summer so gotta write cover letters and resume :(