Expectations

Expectations expectations...

It's recess week and I'm not exactly having a break. Even though I only have two midterms at the end of recess week, I have three project meetings this week.

I didn't get short listed for Barclay's :( I have sucky interview skills, only a slightly above average CAP, no accolades to my name except blogging competitions and not enough leadership experiences. I wonder if I'll get an internship at all or even a job after I graduate. Sometimes I know I expect too much from myself, and I'm not zai enough to go after the things I want in my mind. And it kills me, so much.

Sometimes I just hate to be me cus I almost always can't get what I want in life. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself and I need to get over it and accept that I'm not good enough.

Which to choose? Continue fighting or give up and accept. I don't know...

Anyway recess week sucks cus I feel so stressed :( Haven't been out since Fri. I hope my hard work pays off, I really hope.

V'day 2013

We had dinz at La Nonna, this Italian restaurant in Holland V!

L got me flowers, love love the white roses, they look so beautiful!

Non stop taking photos with the bouquet haha.

My v'day spoils from L. Flowers, cupid cupcakes, mango avocado prawn salad and crabmeat linguine!

Think the pasta is really nice but not as nice as the one at Changi. I love Changi's crabmeat linguine! La Nonna has weekday 1-for-1 lunch ala carte, which L and I want to go for someday.

Finally a photo of us together. Thank you my dear, for being my valentine on v'day. 

感恩

Feeling quite apprehensive now cus I have a phone interview with Barclay's tmrw! I'm extremely grateful for this opportunity. It's like heaven heard me and decided to grant me this opportunity. I have to grab this opportunity!!!! It's so near CNY, I really hope I can do well cus if not, it would set a depressing tone for one of the happiest holidays for me.

I really suck at interviews and sometimes I feel like I was born to screw things up. Do any of y'all have this feeling sometimes? I feel really really scared and nervous x_x So much pressure to do well. But I guess I'm more prepared for interviews after being traumatized by JP Morgan? I really can't handle competency based questions, but I did some preparation and I hope it would come in useful tmrw. Hope I won't sound fake and scripted :(

Tmrw is my best chance and I swear I'll do my best!

p/s life's good and my mum bought a new MJ table and MJ set, which means I can invite my friends to my house for MJ! :D