Expectations

Expectations expectations...

It's recess week and I'm not exactly having a break. Even though I only have two midterms at the end of recess week, I have three project meetings this week.

I didn't get short listed for Barclay's :( I have sucky interview skills, only a slightly above average CAP, no accolades to my name except blogging competitions and not enough leadership experiences. I wonder if I'll get an internship at all or even a job after I graduate. Sometimes I know I expect too much from myself, and I'm not zai enough to go after the things I want in my mind. And it kills me, so much.

Sometimes I just hate to be me cus I almost always can't get what I want in life. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself and I need to get over it and accept that I'm not good enough.

Which to choose? Continue fighting or give up and accept. I don't know...

Anyway recess week sucks cus I feel so stressed :( Haven't been out since Fri. I hope my hard work pays off, I really hope.