LAST DAY OF 2013

/24th January 2014

Such a long hiatus. It even feels unnatural for me to be typing on this space.

I've been really busy lately. I have increased my tuition to 3 tutees so far (probably going to add another one in Feb), and I'm working for my parents during the weekend as well. All this... To earn money for Europe. More on Europe later.

Here to talk about my 2013. 2013 passed too damn fast!! I'm becoming old really fast :(

I spent the first few days of 2013 in Korea. I miss Korea so much, even until now. It was one of the more enjoyable periods of my life. I had no worries at all, just enjoying myself. However, it wasn't all that bad to come back to SG. I took a shower after I reached home and it feels really weird to see the bathroom so big! Not to say my house's bathroom is big, but it was that the bathroom in my Korea hostel was too small. School started soon after, and I didn't enjoy it. Then something unpleasant happened. Just so happens that I didn't know certain people as well as I thought I did.

Subsequently, it was time for internship. I thought getting an internship in a bank was a big deal, so I went all for it. I got tons of rejections before ____ accepted me! The stint opened my eyes to banking and I realized it's nothing much. Just because banking is glamourized by investment banking and stock trading, it doesn't mean going into banking is lucrative (unless you go into the two mentioned tracks). Getting a job in a bank in departments other than IB and Trading wouldn't mean a high salary or bonus, I had a glimpse of their starting pay and I would say it's normal, like in other industries but most likely you have to put in more overtime.

Then school started again. I learnt a lot from the modules I took in Y4S1. I have learnt technical skills and discovered what I want to do in the future (or so I think). It was also the semester which I felt grossly inadequate compared to my overachieving classmates, people with multiple internships with foreign banks, people who knew what they really wanted and went all out. I wasn't one of them, I wasn't hungry enough. It's something I have been pondering on, even till now. Oh, and I became interested in football cause of L.

I was applying for winter internships in a bid to improve my resume, but I couldn't get one. Rejections, rejections, rejections sighhh. Spent the first part of December feeling depressed, due to my lack of internship, which explains why I stopped blogging. After that I got over it... & the year ended! Time passed so so so fast.

Again, I'm older. I was thinking how, in 7 years time, I would be 30 years old. As old as I ever knew my Mum. But I don't even feel old? I feel like as I did when I was in sec1. Still as insecure as ever...