I want to feel "uncomfortable"

Sometimes, on my way home I'll reflect on the work that I have done. Today, I had an epiphany on the train home.

I realized how much I like to stick to a routine (or is it human nature?). For some jobs, routine is good, but I don't think it's good or essential for my job. For the first few weeks at work, I unknowingly developed a routine and I tried and wanted to stick to it. I guess sticking to a routine makes me less anxious cus I know I would be able to perform if I follow some steps. Maybe not spectacularly, but at least I would be able to meet my manager's expectations. But I realize, having a routine is detrimental because I would stick to a bare minimum and I wouldn't put in more effort to exceed my manager's expectations.

I want to excel in my job and I realized the key to that is that I shouldn't stick to a routine that much. I guess it differs job to job. If you're in operations, I guess being efficient is key so you should stick to a routine and work on minimizing the time needed to do each task. For me, it's about looking at different economic situations everyday and try to weave all of them into one "believable" story. I want to be "uncomfortable" and keep looking for ways to improve the work I do. Saying that is easy, but putting it into practice requires a lot of effort. Some days I feel so sian, I don't even bother to try. From now on, I will try and see where it brings me :)