Nua at home sunday

It's a sunday and I'm not going to my grandma's house cus my father isn't in Singapore. And I'm kinda enjoying it x_x

I woke up today, watched a bit of HIMYM then had pizza hut for lunch. Then I continued watching HIMYM. hahaha isn't this kind of life nice? After all, I spent 5 days this week in school. Matriculation and CO practices. I don't know why I get so tired easily. I had like 10 hours of sleep yesterday, but after 6 hours of CO practice, I was so tired I knocked out on the sofa for like 2 hours before I went to bathe.

It feels awesome to stay at home all I want and do whatever I want, mainly nua-ing.

School's starting and I really dunno what to do for my last GEM, I want to have a free day, but it looks quite impossible x_x I think I really need a free day to go off, to re-charge or to study. And for my GEM, it's a battle between choosing something I'm interested in or something that I think I'll do well in.

Haiiii

Plus I'm really feeling insecure about myself. About my abilities. The recent events have made me doubt a lot of my abilities, like the ability to do well in exams, the ability to thrive in a university environment, the ability to make decisions without asking people for opinion, the ability to juggle my cca and my university education, the ability to play my ZR well. These insecurities are killing me, I think about them every night before I sleep and I can't sleep cus "All my life, I wanted to be an A, but I ended up being a B+" I started questioning myself. How did I manage to do some of things in the past which I can't do now?? It just kills and it upsets me.

All I know now is to do my best, cus I'm left with nothing. I can't do any worse