Bittersweet

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Bittersweet.
A term that a friend of mine used last time when I asked him to tell me the relationship related gossip of another guy. He refused to tell me, but he said even if the guy doesn't get together with the girl of his dreams, it would be bittersweet when "he" reminisces. I didn't think it was true but now I think it's true to a certain extent.

When I think back of the crush I had when I was secondary 2, I remembered how his class was opposite and one level below mine. I would stand by the railing as and when I was free to observe him in the class. Is it stalkerish? Hahaha. Then I think about how naive and young I was. How I was so timid and stuff. Something I really missed. All the emotions I felt.

Even if an attempt at a relationship wasn't successful, there must be some period of time when you were enjoying yourself, liking that person. You will notice every single thing that the person does and you will be happy irrationally ( due to the random stuff that your crush does). Even if all efforts come to waste, you were happy once. He/she made you happy at some point in time & that's enough.

At least that is, for me. Getting into a relationship doesn't mean you will be happier. When you think back the memories of an unrequited love, it would be bittersweet tinged with regret. Compare it to the memories of your ex, is it all hatred and bad memories? Isn't it better for both parties to be happy without hurting each other?

Just some late night thoughts that I thought I should rant on my blog since it's quite dead x_x