Unmotivated

1. Recently, I keep mulling over what my future job is going to be or whether I'll ever get a job that I'd like to do. There were so many graduate programs open and I have applied for a few. I should be calm and wait for them to call me for an interview but I can't! I keep thinking of how bad my resume is, how small my achievements are... & I just got this feeling that no banks will call me, almost like what happened last year with internship applications. This thing is on my mind like 90% of the time :(

2. Because #1 is always on my mind, I feel so distracted and unmotivated for my studies. I know it's supposed to be the other way round but I just can't bring myself to study when I feel down.

3. I'm pretty free these days despite it being week 9. All my projects haven't started yet but I found free time to read an unrelated library book. However, I'm feeling guilty already cus I know I'm going to be damn busy later. 

Anyw, it's just four more weeks to go. I just need to get this semester over and done with!! & just lie in bed and rot my life away