Currently I feel so overwhelmed with work. Actually I feel overwhelmed every single day, since like week 3? Almost everyday, I have been consumed by work from the time I reach home to the time I go to sleep. I don't have time to sit on the sofa to watch TV with my parents or even lie on my bed to read a chapter of a storybook (that's for now, but previously I neglected work for reading). Ok, I do go out with my friends and I enjoy that a lot! But I'll feel guilty that I'm not doing work. There's just so much work to do!! Especially my FSP and my two modules that have weekly assignments. As for my FSP, I'm soooo sick and tired of researching about ATMs and Sri Lanka and the constant revision. I know it is needed for our report to get better, but I feel so sian about it. There's so little information on the web as well. I have to research on the topic for like half an hour before I get a decent paragraph on it. Plus I feel so unconfident about it cus I'm not a Sri Lankan and I'm looking into Sri Lanka as a third party. Haiz :/ I'm hoping I would stop feeling so overwhelmed when it ends in week 10/11, when it is time for submission
Even though I feel super overwhelmed and can't wait for it to end, I also know I'll start missing school when it ends. Haiz :/ I'm so conflicted. I feel quite stressed up about finding a job. I know of 3-4 friends who got a job already and I'm starting to panic! Ideal scenario is that I get a job before I start going on the grad trips. If not, it would be ok as well, just that my heart won't be at ease when I go for those trips? Cus I know I must find a job when I come back :( If only this is not my last semester...
I know I'll also miss having afternoon naps and doing things own time own target. I like school cus it's very flexible. I manage my own time and if I don't have school or work, I get to do other things. But when work starts, whether or not I have work I would be tied to my desk. No more afternoon naps or visiting cafes during weekdays. Sad right? Free time is only when the sky is dark. Also, I have been a student all my life and I have to say I've become good at being a student. I generally do well and I like studying and learning new things. I'm quite different from most of my friends who hate school and can't wait to work. I don't dare to admit this cus they will go like "are you sure?!?!" It's going to change when I go to work... Will I be good at working? Will I enjoy working? Also, even if I return to studies after working for awhile, things will never be the same. I'll never be as carefree as I am now. Oh my, talking about this makes me want to cry.
So much uncertainty, but I'm going to embrace it. There's no way out and like this saying "天下无不散之筵席", the only thing I can do now is to treasure my last few months as a student.
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