Lost my motivation

Yesterday, I started studying for the first time in weeks. I FINALLY had time to study cus most of my projects are over, with just two more submissions next week. Yesterday I felt pretty motivated when I was at SMU with Debra. Studying felt like a refreshing activity after chionging so many projects.

But today... my motivation just went downhill. I actually went to play candycrush on my phone! After I stopped playing it for like more than six months? I wanted to do anything but to do readings haiz.

A picture of my table

The highlighter in the picture is my favourite highlighter of all time cus it's so cool. It is like a crayon and the color looks super neon compared to other highlighters. Fang bought it as a souvenir when she went to Korea. I definitely want to buy it again if I were to go Korea again. But there's like no use for it already? Cus I will be working. Sigh...

I keep overthinking ______. I know I have done all that I could and the outcome is not up to me... But I would still like to get it. Even though I know now that it is going to be very very small chance given how I performed.

Double sigh...