L's birthday

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!

It's pretty late and I'm still waiting for my hair to dry so I thought I might as well blog about something nice. Hate how my brain shuts down after about 12-1am. This is the time when I can't start on anything new after I finished something. Since blogging is a brainless activity...

Well, I shall blog about L's birthday! It's quite back dated alr but I was lazy to import photos into my computer.

 L's present! Wrapped in yellow paper with purple polka dots and purple ribbon!

 We went to this restaurant on the top floor Changi Village Hotel and it was awesome! Its outdoor seats offered a view overlooking the sea, but by the time we reached there, it was so dark that we couldn't see a thing. Attempted to sit outdoors but the wind was blowing too strongly so we ended up indoors. Their food was supposed to be nice too and it did not disappoint!

Appetizer is Parma Ham on Melon!! I like the melon more than the ham. Didn't take photo of the bread they gave, but L loved it with balsamic vinaigrette!

The main course that both of us ordered was crabmeat linguine! It's nice cus the crabmeat was really present in chunks and the sauce was awesome!!! Omg talking about it makes me feel like eating it again :(

L's current profile pic on Facebook!

It was awesome time together. Realized I didn't take photo of the cake and the food he and I cooked in the afternoon! Sad :(

Hectic life

On the bus to school but I feel so overwhelmed by things to do x_x

Things to do:
Read up about the US mortgage market cus I have a group project consisting of 15 pages written report + 30min presentation due on week 5

Read all the textbook chapters for week 1

Write part of the exec summary of ideasinc

Continue with sponsorships for CO

Transpose the sheng scores

Master all the pieces for concert

Does it seem like a lot? I want to stop going out and stay at home to study. Lol. Been going out too much recently and I always reach home late. Haizzz.

I can't help being "such a person"

No mood for school

Feeling upset too. I just feel so sianzzz

In life, if you gain something somewhere, you must lose something elsewhere. Quite true to me so far. To gain love and to get rid of solitude, to have someone who's interested in listening to all my complaints, I must give up my control over certain things.

My emotions are dependent on a certain person and this is the aspect I hate most about relationships. It's just, I don't like to depend on anyone. The thing I like most about being single is the autonomy over my emotions. I don't need to care about anyone, and there's no need to give in.  I just do my own stuff, I don't care if you get angry. I don't get attached to a single person. One of my friends once said that he liked me this way, the "don't care" attitude.

After that I subsequently realized I was selfish. And maybe it was because of my "don't care" attitude that now the same friend and I became acquaintances compared to close friends last time. I know I cannot don't care about people, but it's just I can't help it.

But then, there's always an upside. The happiness derived from the same person can fill me up instantly... When I think of that, sometimes I think it's all worth it.

Today I hate myself once more, for being such a person. Then again, I can't help being "such a person" There isn't any conclusion here. Just that you have to give things up for certain other things and you just have to think of the upside when the downside is here to swallow you. Just hang on!

I like to stay up late alone at night when I'm feeling upset and that's what I'm doing nowww. Don't want to do anything and I refuse to sleep.

My favourite instagram photos

Ever since I got iPhone as my phone, I've been taking more photos than normal. My DSLR must be feeling lonely :( It's so convenient to use iPhone to take photos + can add different effects using apps. My favourite app is instagram cus I think it makes every photo look either beautiful or cool. Below are my favourite instagram photos. If you followed me on twitter then you should have seen them before! 

Taken by Siewfong at Timbre. The lights they hang underneath the tent.

I used an app (multi lens) to create this photo. The long awaited secondary school friends outing. But in the end only 3 attended. So sad :(

Sending Jia Lin off to Canada at Changi Airport.

Baked oysters at momiji. Okay only, it's like cheese on top of oysters used in oyster omelette. My sister was saying that the shells were fake and they weren't real oysters.

THIS IS BETTER THAN LOACKER! I ate a lot of this. My cousin bought this back either from Norway or Germany and it's really really nice cus both the biscuit and the chocolate very thick.

Toffee nut latte in Starbucks @ Rochester Park

The windows. Again at Starbucks @ Rochester Park. I think this Starbucks outlet is quite nice. It's 2 stories and I like the ambience!

While studying at Utown + loacker from L! I couldn't stop snacking on it while I was studying :(

Studying again. Friend bought KOI for us! Hahaha

I like this! Found on the inside of all Kate Spade bags. Whimsical.

Smoked Salmon Salad from Swissbake @ NEX. Not bad, I like it with bubble tea. So my meal is not so low fat after all :(

Corsage for my cousin's wedding. So pretty!!

Okay, end. You do realize this is a boring post? LOL

2011 < 2012

Well, about 2011.

It was pretty okay...

Started off the year with things I can't remember but I think it was also staying at home during the countdown. I hate crowds and I don't want to squeeze with them during the new year and get my things stolen or something. Realized I always don't have anything on on supposedly eventful days like NYE and X'mas.

School started and I can't remember anything much except that I had biz comm and it was awful :(

The next big event that occurred was CO concert I think. Practices went really intensive in the week leading up to the concert and I remembered cabbing home with HuiJing like twice that week, paying $10 per person. Cus of the intensive practices, I didn't have time to spend my pocket money lol. Ended up being quite rich but I spent it all cabbing :(

Concert was pretty memorable cus it was at the Esplanade! My first time there! Had to put make up ourselves and stuff but thank goodness there were alumni to help us with it :)

L also entered my life and I'm glad hehehe

Ran for NUSCO exco and I got the Social Secretary position cus there was no one competing for it. I was pretty nervous cus it involved giving a speech in front of the members and alumni who were present and I also had to answer any questions from them. Looks like I was let off easily hahaha.

Then came the long holsss which I did nothing and went to Korea for 2 weeks. The Korea trip was awesome cus it was damn slack at the end. At the start, we were disciplined and we woke up quite early and did at least 2 itinerary items a day. But at the end we woke up at like ten or eleven and one did 1 item a day and I liked it cus I had enough rest :) I miss the tofu soup and fried chicken there!!!

Spent the remaining holidays going out and L and friends and had some exco meetings. Organized CO chalet and it was a failure :( Matriculation fair was okay. Thanks to everyone who has helped me in the chalet and matriculation fair!!

Got my results and it was disappointing. A really low phase of my life and I was pretty depressed for awhile. Started the next sem pretty unconfident of my abilities :(

Yeah I was unhappy and stuff but I guess I'm thankful of that. Because that phase really taught me a lot of things. To be stronger emotionally. To have faith in myself even when things are against me. To pick myself up. Stuff like that. Since that phase, I guess nothing much can make me that upset anymore. I realized that life is not that smooth sailing and I'm ready to ride all the waves.

Started the next sem by being quite hardworking (I don't know if I reached my limit) It is the only sem so far in which I completed almost all my tutorials on time and read almost all textbook chapters before lectures. Aiming to maintain that in the coming sem :)

Next sem was okay with quite little projects. Had mooncake festival celebrations for CO. Exams came and music camp was next. This was the year when I became closer to the exco like Huimin and Tj (SSSS :D), knew more friends from CO and knew more gossips. Previously I lived in a small world where there was only HuiJing and me, we knew nothing about gossips and no one included us in their clique except for our own section. It was fun nonetheless. Sometimes I missed those times when things become complicated and political now.

And before I knew it, 2011 is over. 2011 was a year where I learnt alot from myself and others. I also made new friends, became closer to some and further from some.

For 2012 I only have 2 resolutions, which is to have more faith in myself and to be more hardworking, in whatever I do, like CO and school work!

So angryzx suddenly

Suddenly feel very angry so I decided to download this app and vent!!!

Oh, it's about two guys and one girl. Let's name the two guys G1 and G2 and the girl, B.

Anyway it just so happened that G1 likes girl B and started making moves on her. The things he did are unbelievable cus he doesn't normally does it. And he talks to B openly so it's super obvious.

Yeah so I don't know why G2 must be so kaypoh to sound the B out and tell me about it. Scrutinize his actions and it makes me feel like what G1 does is wrong. Comments on his way of talking. Is chasing a girl wrong? Unless you like B or why would you be so interested? G2, how would you feel if some guy sound out your every move on a girl and gossips it with someone else! Imagine someone asking the girl you're interested in how you make your moves on a girl. I feel so angry for G1 suddenly because I know I don't want to be treated the same way. Don't want people to gossip about my moves, what's wrong with making moves on a girl when I'm a guy? Right. So angryzx!

I know I like to gossip also :(( Haizx

Can't live without you

Christmas is coming soon and I haven't really felt Christmasy. I really missed those times when I was small and my parents would pretend to be Santa Claus by slipping presents at the bottom of our bed at night. There was always a present at the bottom of my bed on every Christmas.

Now it's just gift exchanges between friends.

I feel like I can't get too close to anyone cus when any of my friends get too close to me, I would tend to shrink away. Tried controlling but I just can't. It's like a reflex.

This not only happens to friendships.

Sometimes I think I don't deserve happiness at all.

I feel like I'm not happy until I destroy my own happiness. I  know I shouldn't or I might regret but I can't help but to feel that way.

How warped a person I am.