I'm

Arrogant, vain, indecisive, blunt, cold, insensitive, insincere, lazy, lethargic, manipulative, vengeful, dangerous. 

or too fucked up

lol.

I will always suddenly feel very alone when I attend gatherings. I dunno why. Normally no one will notice that I suddenly become very quiet. But today, one of my friends noticed.

Couldn't believe it. He said I was too quiet today.

& I felt happy.