When I could remember every fucking thing in the textbook

I wondered how I did it when I was young. Now when I come to think of it, I was so well prepared for my secondary school exams than anything else in the world.

Did my korean final test. I found it really difficult cus I didn't study enough. Recently I keep procrastinating, and life is so meaningless when I need to study. I wondered how I found the meaning to study when I was in sec school

I need to do well so fucking badly. But the want is not there. It feels like I could let my heart cui until there's no more of me left.

Then if there's no life, there will be no competition and even if there is no meaning, it doesnt matter anymore.

To my sister:

No one is perfect and even if people get perfect grades, they lose out to you somewhere or another. All you need to do now is to study harder and win those who had won you before. Sweet victory only comes after hardwork. I understood that but I could never work so hard. JIAYOU for your final lap (: